There’s a First for Everything!

So, this is it! The first click of the roller coaster. Afterwards has been in the making for awhile and I am energized (and nervous) to begin the journey with you.

I don’t necessarily think that all things in life are “meant to be” – my mom wasn’t meant to die. All I know is that there have been events, which transpired into life-changing circumstances, which led me to begin a personal journey of epic proportions, which formulated into thoughts and words, which right now have me sitting on a couch writing about the woman who, intentionally and not, instigated it all. My mom always ceaselessly encouraged me to write and, though she would have been uncomfortable with the attention, it feels like she has set this blog in my lap and said “go”.

If I had one wish I would bring my mom back. If I had two wishes, I would bring my mom back while retaining the knowledge of everything I have experienced in losing her (if only we could learn so intensely in life without the ache). Alas, I am void of a genie, and so I must learn to be satisfied with taking in these experiences, intentionally growing from them, and sharing my story with those who may be on the same ride. That is what this blog will be.

Thanks for reading!


9 thoughts on “There’s a First for Everything!

  1. Jennelle – I picked the following poem for my Mom’s memorial card last week – for three reasons. First, it is how my mom would want me to carry on, second – at age 14 she gave flowers to this very queen. Third it reminded me of the courage and growth you have displayed since the ” She is Gone” was my BBFIH (beloved best friend in heaven)

    She is gone
    You can shed tears that she is gone
    Or you can smile because she has lived
    You can close your eyes and pray that she will come back
    Or you can open your eyes and see all that she has left
    Your heart can be empty because you can’t see her
    Or you can be full of the love that you shared
    You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday
    Or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday
    You can remember her and only that she is gone
    Or you can cherish her memory and let it live on
    You can cry and close your mind, be empty and turn your back
    Or you can do what she would want: smile, open your eyes, love and go on.
    David Harkins (1959 – ) Note: read at the funeral of HM Queen Elizabeth, the Queen Mother in 2002.

    Smile —- eyes wide open—- love—- and off we go!
    Love Pam

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